Thursday, July 16, 2009
I knew that one cannot have the cake and eat it
But I truly thought that we could beat it
I stood by you when your world rearranged
But overlooked how you too have changed
I believed that we could weather things together
And treasured your friendship more than you discovered
I miss the days when I had your unconditional support
Especially because now we hardly ever talk
Life often ends up being complicated
With simple things becoming convoluted
My concern was seen as an annoyance to you
When all I wanted was your honest view
I thought you knew you could trust me
To share your thoughts over tea or coffee
My naive mind assumed it was the geographical distance
And never would have thought that you’d become reticent
Until I realized I could lie to myself no more
And admit that you’ve walked out of my life’s door
I hope that you may soon chance upon this
And tell me that I have gone amiss
That all I have an overactive imagination
And our bond will last till the next generation
I never liked cold wars and never will
My prayer is that we can get together for a meal
Regardless of whatever misunderstandings
And let Christ’s love rule our beings
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
1 Corinthians 13 – The famous chapter about love. It is often used at weddings, even when neither bride nor groom can truly be considered Christians. This chapter also contains the verses used by a certain denomination to support their view that tongues no longer exist, hence churches or people who speak in tongues are wrong.
To me those verses have been used out of context and the view that tongues no longer exist is a stand that obviously overlooks the following chapter. However, in my conviction to correct wrong thinking, I myself have lost focus of what is truly important. The self-righteousness in me wanted to believe that correction was out of love. But I think a little soul searching would reveal that my real motivation was pride.
I have admitted before and will admit again that I struggle with pride. All these years, I have struggled with kicking “I” out of first place and putting God there. It is truly His grace that He has humbled me on many occasions, bringing me back to Him. But I am far from having a heart of humility and the process of reaching there will be a long and painful one that only ends when I meet Him.
The last few years I have debated whether or not I will stay in my present church. I thought that by giving myself 6months to serve and get connected will help me make the decision more easily. I have reconnected with old friends and made new ones. I have seen areas where I can serve. But the reasons why I considered leaving and still do, remain or have become even larger. It is now almost time for me to return the Adelaide, and things are not any clearer. However, I pray that at the end of the day, when I do finally make the decision to stay or leave, my real motivation would be out of love, not pride or comfort. A love for God that is displayed through a love for others.
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