Sunday, December 31, 2006
i removed my french manicure nail polish. received nice comments for it but alas there were too many chipped areas that it was better to get it all off. it was quite disappointing to see my real nail colour again after a little more than a week and i am hoping to get another french soon if only i had the money.
removing this nail polish was quite painful cuz i really liked it (or rather the compliments i got) and it only lasted but awhile. it wud have been great if it din get chipped so soon from all the housework im doing, but thats nt realistic.
today another 'polish' was removed and the experience was even more painful than the above. its the 'polish' of trying hard to do something right only to find out you have been doing it all wrong. then there is that little voice that tells u to just give up, let someone who is more apt at not offending people do the job, why bother trying, u'll only get urself hurt.
the temptation to listen to that voice is very great. i mean if you'll only be hurting others and urself, its better to just stop. cuz despite ur best intentions, u are only doing more harm than good. right?
perhaps. but many a time we are called to do something that we are weak in. take for example Moses, who stuttered, but was called to go against Pharoah and bring the Israelites out of Egypt. can u imagine if he ran away from his calling?
maybe u'll say it aint my calling but i believe that we are all called to love our neighbour. and what better way to love than to share the greatest gift of all? if i am not doing it the right way, then i guess the only thing i ought to do is ask for wisdom in showing love. im not perfect, and i may never get it right, but thats not gonna stop me from trying cuz i know there is someone who believes in me.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
I believe most people have heard the song Amazing Grace. This song is essentially the same but with a different tune. What better time to think about God's grace than during the Christmas season?
Its Boxing day today or the 2nd day of Christmas. Spent a really quiet Christmas yesterday and am stuck at home no thanks to the rain. However my weekend was pretty happening.
Met up with my old secondary school choir mates on fri night, some of whom I haven't seen since I took my O's. It never fails to amaze me that with my AHS friends, regardless of how long we haven't met, we always can chat with one another like we have been keeping in touch all along. Had a good talk with one of them who is currently at a crossroad of his life.
In our lives we all will face crossroads, which remind me of the one thing i know from econs - opportunity cost. When you choose something, the opportunity cost is what you are missing from the other choices. When you are serving God, often He will ask you to choose one that may seem foolish in the ways of the world. For example, give up a high paying accountant job and become a social worker that pays only a fraction. It is tempting to ignore God's voice in situations like this, however, when you decide to obey, God will reward you in ways you can never imagine.
Sometimes God seems silent and lets you choose. You desperately want a clear sign from Him but He is as vague as a cloud. You look for Him in friends' advice and parents' wishes, in thunders and whispers. But you can't seem to find Him at all. Its as though He wants you to make the decision on your own, the decision to trust Him that no matter what, He is still in control. Thats what so amazing, the sky may be falling down on us or the earth opening up, God is still in control.
Some of your may be sick of hearing this, but let me have the pleasure of saying it once more. After the rejection from NUS med sch, I had to choose what to do next. I had no idea and I was asking God to help me, since He closed that door, He had to open another one. I had a nursing scholarship waiting for me and I applied for speech in aus. I accepted nursing, as logically speaking without a scholarship I couldn't study in aus and NCSS then had not gotten back to me. However, the dean of Ngee Ann poly called and told me to reconsider. It wasn't a direct no, but I took it that it was not for me. I accepted my place in Flinders and though I had no idea how my studies could be financed, I had no worries. It was amazing, for someone who is a worrier, to have no doubt I'll finish my 4 years. Call it blind faith, but when you are doing God's will, a peace that transcends all understanding will descend upon you.
This story of mine has a happy ending - God came thru for me just 3 days before i left for Aus. So I just wanna encourage all my friends at crossroads of their life, to obey God if you are hearing it loud and clear or to just take a step of faith and God will reveal His purpose for you. Sometimes you have to make the choice before you know its God's will.
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