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Friday, November 07, 2008

its almost 2am here and i am blogging... something i haven't done in over a month. things been a lil crazy here - a big SORRY to everyone who has been on the receiving end of my short fuse due to my workload, but it really isn't an excuse.

as much as i would love to say i have finished my last assignment, i can't. its that awfulness of being stuck in something that seems to be going nowhere (current status: 40% done for 3 days and counting). it frustrates me, having a whole heap of resources in front of me, yet being totally clueless about how to write this essay. ever felt that way before? knowing that you have done everything you can to equip yourself but you still find yourself lost?

some people resign to fate, others look to the stars for answers. for me, once again, its a reminder that "Lydea can't, but God can." My dad actually sent me an email with that phrase a while ago, but I pushed it out of my mind cuz I was too busy to actually think about its significance. I get disappointed with myself time and time again whenever I actually stop to examine myself, because in the busyness of life, God is often left out. Maybe that is why I shy away from pausing and evaluating myself, because I know that I will be ashamed of myself and the way I have treated God. As I go further away from Him and life's pressures never ceasing, it is little wonder that I become disgruntled and short tempered, burnt out and weary.

I don't claim to be perfect nor is it ever my intention to glorify my shortcomings. As said before, this blog is meant to encourage anyone out there in their walk with God in an honest manner. I believe that every Christian experiences ups and downs and I believe that God works in us all the time.

I want to thank Danny and his housemates, Justin and Brian for the wonderful act of love they showed me (and I believe many others) today. Its that time of the year when everyone is busy with assignments and exam preparation. However these 3 men of God, made time to cook and pack dinner as well as home delivery (from the city to my place, which takes about 20-30mins by car). When people like me find it difficult to even find time to spend with friends, these guys went above and beyond. They may not think that they have done much, but they are shining examples of what it means to love like Jesus did and I am sure that God will use them mightily.

Just heard this song on the radio and looking closer at the lyrics, I realized that it echoed the 3 guys' actions tonight:

Dont Get Comfortable - Brandon Heath

Comfortable, don't get comfortable.

I am gonna' move this mountain then I'm gonna move you in.

Yesterday, this is not yesterday.

You were standing on my shoulders now; you're standing on the edge.

You've been looking for a sign all this time.

I am gonna show you what I mean

I am gonna love like you've never seen

You are gonna live like you used to dream

This is your new song

So afraid but you don't have to be afraid

Even if you make mistakes

You know that I'll remain

You've been looking for a sign all this time.

If you seek you'll find me every time.

So I am gonna show you what I mean

I am gonna' love like you've never seen

You are gonna live like you used to dream

This is your new song

Can you feel the call of love?

Is it moving you to be a child of God of love?

Is it reaching you?

It's everywhere the call of love.

I just want to show you what I mean

I just want to love like you've never seen

Do you want to live like you used to dream?

Then I've got a song for you

Cuz I am gonna show you what I mean

I am gonna' love like you've never seen

You are gonna live like you used to dream

This is your new song

You've got a new song

When life gets busy, I seek comfort -I eat dessert, watch tv, play games. While they may help me to relax and take my mind off the work that I need to do, I am only coping with life. But I wasn't made to be coper, I was born to be a conqueror when I accepted Christ as my Lord and Saviour. So I should stop trying to attain comfort and start going above and beyond, loving others like they've never seen and live the life I dream. Those 3 guys today proved that that is possible.

Lydea blogged at 1:46 AM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...