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Sunday, June 08, 2008

I want to release my expectations.

Why?

Well, where there are expectations, there will also be disappointments. No expectations = no disappointments.

My God is a very practical God. You learn about something one day and the next day, He gives you a chance to practise it.

At OCF on friday, we learnt about bitterness. Candidates for bitterness are people with a victim attitude - claiming to be blameless and better than others, claiming to be betrayed. Exaggeration and comparison just adds oil to the fire.

Today, I found myself in exactly that position and I can't differentiate if I am more upset with the people that caused it or with myself for feeling that way. Either way, I don't like how I'm feeling right now.

The words of "Healer" constantly float through my head - "Jesus, you are my portion, you're more than enough for me". If these words rang true in my life, I wouldn't have felt that way regardless of what happens. My problem was that Jesus was not enough for me. I wanted more and because of that, I have been disappointed and hurt again and again.

Hebrews 12:15 says "See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many."

I have to nip this in the bud! But if I continue to wallow in that pathetic pit of self pity, then I will just be watering the seed of bitterness and letting it take root in my heart. So what should I do?

Friday's bible study taught that the prescription for bitterness is knowing our position in the kingdom of heaven. No matter what happens to me, I am still a child of God and that is all that matters.

I will have to release my disappointment and hurt to the Lord. Only then will I not harbor any ill feelings toward anyone and continue to love them from the bottom of my heart. But I still want to release my expectations on everyone (except God cuz He is the only one who never fails me). I want to love others and be a friend to them and not expect anything in return. This way I won't be getting disappointed or hurt again. And Jesus will be all I need.

Lydea blogged at 9:21 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...