Friday, June 01, 2007
When I was young, my dad made me repeat this phrase, to remind myself that it is God who is almighty, God who is all-knowing, God who is always in control - not me.
Back then, I failed to fully understand that phrase. Things almost always went as planned, although I was a failure at PR-skills, I always acheived my academic goals and I thought that was enough. To me, there was nothing that I wanted to do but couldn't. Well... that was then.
This whole semester has been tough, real tough. Its not just because I am taking 6 modules with tons of assignments and readings to do, but also because of all the issues thats have been thrown my way. Bible studies did not go as planned, meaning I had to redo them from scratch. Having to discern which friend(s) were telling the truth. Lending a shoulder to cry on to someone who seems to be always making the wrong choices. Or simply listening to the frustrations of a disgruntled housemate.
They all may not seem much, but put them together, its like having to deal with a tsunami. Needless to say, I am drained, mentally, physically, emotionally and even spiritually. There were times I cried typing an email to my parents cause I just didn't know what to do.
I finally understand the phrase now, having experienced so many things that I can't handle alone. If it weren't for God guiding me and giving me strength as well as sending angels (ie all my friends) my way to support me, I do not know how I could have survived that tumultous period.
Im still learning not to rely on my own strength to do things, but to lean on Him. Things are a lil quiet at the moment, thank God, so I can start my revision for the exams that are in less than 2 weeks time!
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