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Monday, January 01, 2007

i don't know why, but as the year 2006 drew to an end, and 2007 arrived, i started lamenting. my heart is welling up with loads of regrets and its nt about the year 2006 but of the year 2005.

you may think that i am 1 year behind time however it could have been the anticipation of going overseas to study that prevented me from giving myself the opportunity to look back and reflect on that year. or maybe its only on hindsight that i begin to see the folly of my ways...

1. I should have taken up driving. Private driving lessons are way cheaper over here and I had over a year to complete it. Now there is no way I'll be able to finish it in the 2mths im back in sg and I can't stand paying more than i have to for anything

2. I should have travelled more! Especially to Taiwan with Val when she asked. Honestly, I can't remember why I did not go with her.

3. I should have seeked medical help for my complexion instead of spending an obscene amount of money (which I earned) that did no good but only made things worse. Im quite puzzled as to why didn't I go to the doctor when I was like 16 or something and waited only after JC. Guess Im not that concerned about my looks as I thought I am.

4. I can't seem to get over certain things I felt I shouldn't have done or said and its driving me nuts. Even though I know its no use crying over spilt milk.

There will be more if I allow myself to ruminate but I won't cuz I can never go back in time so there is no use thinking about the 'What ifs". Instead Im gonna choose to focus on my blessings.

1. Thank God for granting me the scholarship, no doubt its partial, without it I wouldn't be able to complete my studies.

2. Thank God for being with me in Adelaide, surrounding me with people who became my foster family in a place where I barely knew anyone. These wonderful brothers and sisters made me feel accepted me for who I am.

3. Thank God for keeping me sane and upholding me during the semesters especially when all the datelines were closing in and exams looming ominously over me.

4. Thank God for the grades He has graciously given me.

5. Thank God for allowing me to come home in July and Dec and provided seats on the plane for me to rush back for my grandfather's wake and go back to Adelaide for the 2nd sem.

6. Thank God for my parents who have supported my decisions all the way and been there for me always.

7. Thank God for close friends whose friendships with me are not affected by time and distance apart.

8. Thank God for the fantastic time I had in Melbourne and convention. I was truly blessed by everyone I met.

And the list goes on.

I learnt that if one were to always focus on the bad things that has happened, one would easily become depressed and seriously no one likes to be around a depressed person. But if you learn to count your blessings, your outlook in life would be much brighter.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus ."

Lydea blogged at 4:32 PM

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in the darkness...