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Sunday, December 31, 2006

i removed my french manicure nail polish. received nice comments for it but alas there were too many chipped areas that it was better to get it all off. it was quite disappointing to see my real nail colour again after a little more than a week and i am hoping to get another french soon if only i had the money.

removing this nail polish was quite painful cuz i really liked it (or rather the compliments i got) and it only lasted but awhile. it wud have been great if it din get chipped so soon from all the housework im doing, but thats nt realistic.

today another 'polish' was removed and the experience was even more painful than the above. its the 'polish' of trying hard to do something right only to find out you have been doing it all wrong. then there is that little voice that tells u to just give up, let someone who is more apt at not offending people do the job, why bother trying, u'll only get urself hurt.

the temptation to listen to that voice is very great. i mean if you'll only be hurting others and urself, its better to just stop. cuz despite ur best intentions, u are only doing more harm than good. right?

perhaps. but many a time we are called to do something that we are weak in. take for example Moses, who stuttered, but was called to go against Pharoah and bring the Israelites out of Egypt. can u imagine if he ran away from his calling?

maybe u'll say it aint my calling but i believe that we are all called to love our neighbour. and what better way to love than to share the greatest gift of all? if i am not doing it the right way, then i guess the only thing i ought to do is ask for wisdom in showing love. im not perfect, and i may never get it right, but thats not gonna stop me from trying cuz i know there is someone who believes in me.

Lydea blogged at 1:45 AM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...