~May Your Light Shine :D~

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Im writing this hours after we said our goodbyes
Of course it is not the last
But as I saw you today, laughing and playing
It occurred to me that we belong to different worlds
You go for beer while I opt for juice
You know the clubs while I know the churches
Your night starts at 11 and mine ends at 12
Maybe being away for 4 months have made things clearer
Or perhaps I chose to ignore it all these years we’ve been friends
I do not know if I should be writing this here
If this means betraying the friendship we have
Or if you would read this
But one thing I know is that the friendship
Which I traded tears and heartache for
Is one I definitely treasure
It has not been an easy road
Like many of my friendships
Which are hard earned
Being with you sure brought fun and joy
I do not ever regret being friends
However as I sat back and look
I realized that I still do not really know you
To some you may seem shallow
But experience tells me to look beyond the exterior
And I believe there is a wonderful person inside you
There were times when you let me enter into your inner world
Telling me you admire my strength
Sharing your fears
These times were few and far between
And I clung to them with the hope that I could know you more
Being physically away has made it difficult
For me to show you I am still your friend
Coming back has only made it more obvious
That we could be friends in name only
You say you missed me
And I know you do
But if I do not walk into your personal thoughts
I am afraid this will not last
Our friendship is like a gift box
Pretty on the outside
But still empty on the inside
I want to fill it up with many wonderful memories
This can be done
Only if you let me
Will you?

Lydea blogged at 8:32 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...