Friday, July 21, 2006
Yesterday was a day for reminiscing.
After lunch I headed down to Parkway and as I sat on 31, I shared the bus with many of my juniors as it passed by VJ.
As I see the flurry of faces, all of which are unfamiliar to me, other than the beige uniform and red badge, I had a wave of nostalgia wash over me. But it dawned upon me that I am old. I graduated 1.5 yrs ago, and from then till now, I was involved in many things that did not have a permanent marker in my life. Growing up in Singapore, I began to organise my memories in stages corresponding to the institution I was in. However, being away from school for a whole year, doing various jobs that held no permanency nor acheivement, it was a year that seemed to lapse in my memory. Perhaps its because it contained the darkest time of my life or maybe it was simply unmemorable .
Had dinner with my sec4 classmates. What a blast! We all haven't seen each other in months or a year. However, the days, months and years seem to peel away as we chatted like we were still in secondary school. Seeing the girls brought back wonderful memories of our secondary school days and all the fun we had. Listening to Jiayee's lame jokes that made the container classroom even colder, SuHui's laughter that was so infectious, Joy and Jesslin's antics.... oh the good old days. I had no idea how much I missed them till yesterday. It will take time and effort on my part to make sure that I do not lose touch with them, like the many friends before. But with yesterday's gathering, I believe time and distance is not an obstacle to big for true friends to cross.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
I just changed my blog layout, or basically changed the pic. Like it? Managed to expand the reading space since I am always writing so much. Wanted to change to a white background instead, but the words turned out funny and impossible to read. So it'll stay black till I iron out the font. Anyone knows how to change it kindly let me know k?
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Im writing this hours after we said our goodbyes
Of course it is not the last
But as I saw you today, laughing and playing
It occurred to me that we belong to different worlds
You go for beer while I opt for juice
You know the clubs while I know the churches
Your night starts at 11 and mine ends at 12
Maybe being away for 4 months have made things clearer
Or perhaps I chose to ignore it all these years we’ve been friends
I do not know if I should be writing this here
If this means betraying the friendship we have
Or if you would read this
But one thing I know is that the friendship
Which I traded tears and heartache for
Is one I definitely treasure
It has not been an easy road
Like many of my friendships
Which are hard earned
Being with you sure brought fun and joy
I do not ever regret being friends
However as I sat back and look
I realized that I still do not really know you
To some you may seem shallow
But experience tells me to look beyond the exterior
And I believe there is a wonderful person inside you
There were times when you let me enter into your inner world
Telling me you admire my strength
Sharing your fears
These times were few and far between
And I clung to them with the hope that I could know you more
Being physically away has made it difficult
For me to show you I am still your friend
Coming back has only made it more obvious
That we could be friends in name only
You say you missed me
And I know you do
But if I do not walk into your personal thoughts
I am afraid this will not last
Our friendship is like a gift box
Pretty on the outside
But still empty on the inside
I want to fill it up with many wonderful memories
This can be done
Only if you let me
Will you?
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Hi ppl!
I know... I am back (pun intended).
To those who have been patiently waiting for me to update my blog... gomen! Its just that so many things have been happening, I either had no time or no mood to do so.
But, I have decided to stop putting this off any longer, lest I forget what I want to say. So here's a brief review of my past month (i'll try to keep this SnS - short and sweet):
The reason why you did not hear from me during the whole month of June was because I was preparing for my exams and finishing my assignments. If you know me, obviously studies are really important, now not just for my personal satisfaction but also to justify the amount my parents and of course, my scholarship provider, are spending on me.
Initially i was so worried, as I had less than 2 weeks to revise for my exams as I could not revise while my assignments still lay unfinished. Thank God, I had enough time to go through my notes, and still watch some shows (the more i study, the more down time i need). In fact, on the first day of exam, which was in the evening, I was glad the exams were finally starting! I am not an exam-fanatic, but it was just that I was reading the same thing over and over again, I couldn't wait for the exams to just start! Also, for the exams to end, they have to start first right?
This reminds me of an incident where a pastor once asked his church, "Who wants to go to heaven?" Obviously everyone raised their hand. Then he asked, " Who wants to die?" This time not a soul put up their hand. The pastor then said, "How do you expect to go to heaven without dying?"
Exams were over in a flash. 3 at once. It was ok I guess. I rather that than prolonged agony. Had a nice long talk with WQ before she left, and forbidding my Singaporean friends to talk about food as I thought I will not stepping unto Singapore shores until 6 months later. Was complaining of not knowing how to spend my 1 month of holidays. Little did I know I would be flying back in a week after my exams.
Received the news after I came back from Aquatic Centre with Tree. Sounds exciting right? It's actually just a swimming complex full of old uncles. Anyway, I called my mum immediately upon reading the email, and she said if I could catch a flight back, good, else it was ok, since my grandfather has already passed away. There was nothing much I could do even if I went back. However I knew my father would probably want me around. So I prayed and told God that if He wanted me to go back, He will provide a seat, since I knew it would be difficult getting a seat back so last minute.
So I called, and yup, a seat on Sat was waiting for me. However, as I do not deal well with last minute decisions, I was really stressed out, so much so that my face broke out. It was so obvious, almost all my relatives took notice of it, even when they were mourning. Lol. But its better now. Weird, I thought it would be worse in the hot and humid weather.
Anyway, now I am fretting over my flight back. I had no idea why Adelaide has suddenly become a hot study spot. Most of the flights are fully booked and I think its ridiculous having to change my flight from Adelaide to Melbourne on the way back and paying an extra $300 for it. I mean if I choose the return flight, via Melbourne, if I do not take the flight from Adelaide, my return ticket is cancelled. !^*&($%)!@
Sigh...
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