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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

BLESSED LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

This CNY, I found myself repeating again and again what I will be doing. My mum probably repeated 20 times that I will be leaving in 2 weeks. 3 weeks actually, or 19 days to be exact. Just realized my previous post is exactly a month away from the date I will be flying. Anyway, I found out that many people had no idea what speech therapy is, just that speech pathology sounds cheem (Singlish for difficult to understand - have to write and speak in proper english before my dad goes on a long lecture about how my english has deteriorated, not that he will ever read this, but I too believe in respecting languages and that means using them properly). Even my ex-classmate, who took triple science in JC had no idea it was. It is not a rule for all triple science students to be interested in medicine/health science, although majority are, I am surprised my friend had no idea at all what my course was all about. (Nope, I will not be elaborating it here, because it is so laborious, and I think I will explain it better once I started on my course.)

By the way, have I mentioned I will be leaving in 19 days? Yes, Kim, it is 20 Feb. I believe I told you that like a couple of zillion times. But I do not mind repeating myself since you all are planning a surprise party for me. =D The flight has already been booked, will let you all know the exact time later, but it will be at night. Two years ago, when we were in year 2 (we are year 4s now! Feeling so old!), I would have never imagined that one day you all would plan a surprise party for me or go on a shopping trip together to KL. I will really miss you guys, oops, sorry, girls and I do not think I will be able to find another bunch of crazy pals whom I can bond with in Australia. Despite all that happened between us, I am still glad to have been friends with everyone of you (XT, Kim, Van, Moony and Chun). Of course not forgetting my beloved 'family' whom I have known since sec1 (you know who you are). Our friendships have withstood the test of time and I sincerely believe that one day we will have high teas together and be each other's children's godmothers.

Pardon me for getting a little sentimental here. Figured that I better say/write some things before I forget. In all these years, I have realized that some words have to be said, and not assume the other person already knows because most of the time he/she does not. Another reason why I am suddenly in the mood for reminiscing is because recently I have been feeling...lost in time...so to speak. I guess it is due to the fact I have stopped studying for over a year, after 12 years of education in Singapore, and that leaves me very disorientated especially since most of my friends have already moved on to another phase of their lives.

The past 1 year has been pretty painful, and work was really mundane, hence I found little satisfaction. I am one who needs to be productive, like a branch which produces fruit, (unfortunately I have yet to bear any fruit for the Lord). Although I grew a fair bit last year, not taller but emotionally/spiritually, but honestly, I would rather wipe away last year from my mind and start again. Also, even as my departure date draws near, I have yet to pack anything, except for organising my cupboard into the bring and not to bring section. Although I have less than 3 weeks left in Singapore, I still think there is quite a lot more time left for me to meet up with friends, pack, buy essentials, enjoy life, etc. I think it is because I have been slacking too much lately to feel any amount of stress. However, I am stressed over the fact that I ought to be doing more preparations now than I am doing. Rachel, who will be going with me, told me that someone said writing down your thoughts would help so I am blogging them instead. Not sure if it helped, but blogging prevents my writing skills from going down the drain, although my older bro insists I should blog less and write more letters to the newspapers. He thinks I should join PAP or something. Perhaps I will write a letter to TODAY before I leave, about how come NCSS takes so long to give out their scholarships.

Lydea blogged at 2:33 AM

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