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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Do not know how exactly to explain what I am feeling now... Really excited over the development of the show I am watching however it is gonna end soon. Sad...Well at least I will still be around when it ends =)

It has been over a month since my interview, no news. Please pray that God will grant me grace to accept whatever the outcome may be and strength to wait on Him. My patience is running really low, with my housing application still UNDER CONSIDERATION and there seems to be nothing much I can do to prepare for leaving. Thank God at least I have some work to do in the morning, although not much, but it prevents me from killing more brain cells by simply morphing into a couch potato, either sitting in front of the tv or computer for hours. My dad says I am enjoying life, but unfortunately I am one who thrives on work and I feel like an empty shell. Can't wait to start school!!!! I know many of my friends who have already started school do not sympathize my situation, but I seriously cannot stand just waiting for time to pass me by with no goal whatsoever.

Ok, just saw a lizard run towards me. No idea where it is now.

Anyway, I have been reading chinese books to ensure I do not lose the language I spent so much effort on and I have to say I am getting pretty good at it. My reading has improved and it is now almost on par with my english reading speed. Alright, so the books I choose are not exactly hard to understand, but its better than not reading at all! And thanks to all the idol dramas I have watched, chinese is no longer that dreadful. My little brother's mandarin is atrocious and he absolutely detests the subject. My parents are trying ways and means to help him pass the subject but to no avail. Guess you can't force certain stuff...

I seem to have digressed from what was to be the main point of this post. Was reading today's QT and it was on the shortest verse in the bible, "Jesus wept."(John 11:35) This verse is found in the passage about how Jesus' friend Lazarus died and was raised from the dead. (Not as a zombie but as a healthy living person. N.B. Only Jesus can bring a person back to life) The true account goes like this : Jesus received news that Lazarus was very ill, but waited another 2 days before going to see Him. When He arrived at Lazarus' hometown, Lazarus' sisters cried at Jesus feet and asked why didn't He come earlier, for their brother had already died. On hearing that, Jesus cried. But later, He went to Lazarus' tomb and brought him back to life. Now, the question is why did Jesus wait? He knew that if He waited Lazarus would surely die and He would have spared Himself the grief if He went earlier.

The writer of today's QT calls the part where Jesus wept, the greatest miracle of all. Don't get me wrong, it is not that Jesus/God is incapable of shedding tears, in fact I believe He is shedding tears each and every moment for every Christian who sins and for every non-believer yet unsaved. Cynics may call His tears redundant, but His tears proved to us that He is a God who grieves when we grieve. Many a time, God's faithfulness may not be what we expect. For example Lazarus' sisters expected Jesus to save their brother, but they never knew that Jesus meant for Lazarus to die so that He can perform a miracle through him. There will be many times when we fail to see God's faithfulness in our lives, especially when He does not give us what we want, but one thing is for sure, is the He is always by our side, sharing and joys and sorrows. That is His faithfulness and we ought to be satisfied just to have Him all the time and not treat Him like some Santa Claus.

Lydea blogged at 2:23 AM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...