Wednesday, November 09, 2005
I named this post mixed feelings because that is the state I am in...
I am happy because I finally got my notebook after so many months.
BUT
I am frustrated because my notebook's username is stuck at AdminNUS and for me to change it, I would have to go all the way back to NUS because it is too complicated for a computer idiot like me to do it on my own, without the risk of permanently damaging my brand new notebook.
I am having second thoughts as it seems my notebook was not such a good deal after all. Acer has a model like mine, but cheaper. Many people claim that IBM is the best brand around. So where does that leave my Fujitsu S7020? I guess only time will tell...
I am relieved that Meichin's sister wants to buy my facial sessions as now I need not worry about the wasted money.
BUT
I am afraid she might change her mind last minute.
I am delighted because my complexion is finally improving thanks to the new facial treatment and products which I paid a lot for.
I am torn over having to choose between convenience & comfort (staying at home to watch TV) and going out of my way to accomodate others (heading all the way to Clementi at night for a meeting because everyone is not free in the afternoons, missing one my favourite TV shows)
I am glad that I did not give up when the going got tough (I initially wanted to quit the a capella team as I felt my pitching was horrible, it really is, even after 8 years as a chorister. I lose my note easily and since in the a capella team its one to a part, that happens very often. Cannot make it right?) However, I realized that all the more I ought to rely on God instead of running away. I was given the part for a reason and although now I am still not perfect, things are moving more smoothly. Thank God for His grace.
With so many things occuring at the same time, I think the only way not to go crazy is to commit everything to God, which is what I plan to do, even when times are good! Because only He can always be my rock, my refuge and my strength.
Thanks to all the blogs i referred to (countless) for html code help :) (esp. cyn' and sixseven)
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