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Friday, September 23, 2005

Suhui's comment on my tagboard just reminded me that it is time for me to update all my dear friends about the latest development(s) in my life. Actually I think there is only 1 and that is I have paid my first semester school fees (SGD $11400 ?!?!?!) and with the arrival of my certificate of enrolment (COE), I am a confirmed student of Flinders University (finally). But it really dawns on me how much my education is going to cost my parents. Sigh...

NCSS is taking forever. It has been 3 months since I submitted my application to them and everytime I call to hound them, they say they are still in the process of shortlisting. Raphela, who also applied for the same course and scholarship is getting fed up of waiting as she is going overseas only if she gets the scholarship. Today, she smsed me, telling me she dreamt that I got the scholarship and she didn't. Whereas Wei Qin tells me she still dreams of the A levels. Hmm... how come I never have such dreams? My dreams always have nothing to do with my current situation.

Was talking to Jean yesterday about how I feel about speech therapy. If you were to talk to me about it, with all the books I have been reading, the enthusiasm I have would match that I had for medicine previously. Some might feel that I chose speech therapy on a rebound, and to be honest, I am afraid it might be true. I may not feel that way now, but who knows? During those 4 years, I might have a change of heart. Well, if that is the case, then I will work doubly hard to earn one of those post-grad med scholarships awarded by the university. If I do not get it, then I will take it that it is truly God's will for me.

The reason I chose speech therapy was because I wanted to work in the healthcare line and as well as with children. To me, whether or not I become a doctor is secondary. Pardon me, but I am completely bewildered by those who used to profess to badly want to become a doctor, yet when they do not get into med, they become accountants, engineers or scientists. What happened to their dream? Is it ok to just give it up and be happy with the next best thing? I do not know whether is it because they have learnt to accept that fact or was it that their dream was not real enough?

Lydea blogged at 10:06 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...