Wednesday, September 28, 2005
On my way to EH this morning, I probably watched the trailer for April Snow, 4-5 times on the train (you know that small screen installed on some of the new trains). This show stars Bae Young Jun (winter sonata) and Son Ye-jin (the classic, summer scent), and if you have taken the MRT lately, I am pretty sure you have seen the promotional posters.
The show is about this girl and guy who are strangers, but are later brought together when their spouses were caught in the same accident. I am not sure whether their spouses are dead or in a coma in hospital but they later found out that their spouses were cheating on them. As such, they decided to have an affair also, to take revenge on their spouses, not because they fell in love with each other.
While in the train, it strucked me at how many might perceive this couple. They were wronged first, hence they having an affair with each other is not 'that' wrong. If it sounds like warped logic to you, thank God, else, please rethink your moral values.
In a world where tit for a tat or ไปฅ็่ฟ็ is justified, we may find it hard to say this couple is totally in the wrong, which they are. Commiting adultery, whatever the reason is wrong, period. They deserve some justice, some say, well that is true, but 2 wrongs DO NOT make 1 right. Only in maths does 2 negatives equate to 1 positive, but does the world operate solely on mathematical equations? If it does, could someone let me know the equation for love and kinship?
Like they say, you reap what you sow. This is a well understood concept and society works on it. Hence, non-Christians and probably some Christians have difficulty understanding GRACE. Grace is giving something to someone who does NOT deserve it. In this case, it would be the act of forgiving their spouses (and not having an affair), which I will call grace. Unfortunately, the latter seems more human and thus portrayed in the movie. It is natural for us to want to hurt the people who hurt us.
Thankfully, God does not work that way. Although we have hurt Him countless times, He still loves us and sent His son down to die for us. God is also just, and the punishment for sin is death. However, as long as we accept Christ as our Saviour, God will forgive us of all our sins, regardless of whether is it murder or lying. Sounds too good to be true? Perhaps. But God after all is GOD. If we were to fully understand how He is able to be so gracious, we probably do not need Him. As Christians, I guess the only way to repay God's goodness is to do our utmost best to obey Him, not to get an entry ticket to heaven, but simply because its the least we can do to show our love for Him. This means that many a time, we will have to turn away from the human way of reacting to certain situations. It will take more than just self control and it can only be accomplished by relying on God for strength. Have I told your how great my God is? =)
Friday, September 23, 2005
Suhui's comment on my tagboard just reminded me that it is time for me to update all my dear friends about the latest development(s) in my life. Actually I think there is only 1 and that is I have paid my first semester school fees (SGD $11400 ?!?!?!) and with the arrival of my certificate of enrolment (COE), I am a confirmed student of Flinders University (finally). But it really dawns on me how much my education is going to cost my parents. Sigh...
NCSS is taking forever. It has been 3 months since I submitted my application to them and everytime I call to hound them, they say they are still in the process of shortlisting. Raphela, who also applied for the same course and scholarship is getting fed up of waiting as she is going overseas only if she gets the scholarship. Today, she smsed me, telling me she dreamt that I got the scholarship and she didn't. Whereas Wei Qin tells me she still dreams of the A levels. Hmm... how come I never have such dreams? My dreams always have nothing to do with my current situation.
Was talking to Jean yesterday about how I feel about speech therapy. If you were to talk to me about it, with all the books I have been reading, the enthusiasm I have would match that I had for medicine previously. Some might feel that I chose speech therapy on a rebound, and to be honest, I am afraid it might be true. I may not feel that way now, but who knows? During those 4 years, I might have a change of heart. Well, if that is the case, then I will work doubly hard to earn one of those post-grad med scholarships awarded by the university. If I do not get it, then I will take it that it is truly God's will for me.
The reason I chose speech therapy was because I wanted to work in the healthcare line and as well as with children. To me, whether or not I become a doctor is secondary. Pardon me, but I am completely bewildered by those who used to profess to badly want to become a doctor, yet when they do not get into med, they become accountants, engineers or scientists. What happened to their dream? Is it ok to just give it up and be happy with the next best thing? I do not know whether is it because they have learnt to accept that fact or was it that their dream was not real enough?
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Remember the hotel missing dollar question that I posted earlier? Well if you still haven't figured out the answer, here it is!
The answer is in the way the question is worded. You cannot add what one person HAS to what someone else has PAID and come up with any kind of a meaningful number, you have to subtract.
Each man has paid $9. -------- $9 x 3 = $27
The bellhop has $2. -----------$2
Difference-------------------- $25
The hotel clerk has the other 25 dollars.
To look at it from the standpoint of the original $30.
Each man has $1. --------------$1 x 3 = $3
The bellhop has $2. ------------$2
The hotel clerk has $25. -------$25
Total ------------------------- $30
Get it? If you dun, well... I myself still am not quite sure how its supposed to work although I think I understand the logic... but anyway its just some trivia.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
I think I better blog before some of your decide not to visit my blog for good.
Um... ok... I watched Quill today, after holding onto Val's vcd for forever... its a real sweet story. Found myself shedding a few tears at the end of it. I may not look like it, but if I ever had a dog, and it died, I would probably be crying buckets. Walked past pet's safari just now, and puppies are really adorable =) Sigh... if only I had the time and energy to look after one. Should I live in a big house next time, I definitely will get one...I hope!
Anyway, I finally managed to sell off my kimono, remember the one I wore at my concert last year? And guess what, I sold it at the same price I bought it. Ha! At first I thought the buyer was a guy, with a name Jet, who was buying it for his sis. But it was a girl. Well... its ok... at least its out of my cupboard for good.
Alrite, off to TV time now. Hee~ Tata
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Soon after I got over my infatuation with Orlando Bloom as Legolas (ok... I know I'm lagging... just finished watching the trilogy on DVD... really ought to have caught it on the big screen), as well as the overwhelming feeling that I am really a hobbit (think I'll remember that again once I go to australia), Park Gun Hyung is my current fave artiste! Watched Innocent Steps yesterday, and being the impressionable young girl I am, I am now itching to learn ballroom dancing. Sigh, dancing shows always have that effect on me. Anyway, the show is really sweet and even Caili liked it! Park Gun Hyung is not a really famous actor, but it seems he is really big in musicals, having done a remake of Saturday Night Fever. No wonder his dancing looks incredible. The koreans dun think he is all that good looking, but honestly I dun always agree with their taste. He is hot, standing at 1.83m, (I think Val would be happy to know that) that is why Moon Geun Young looks so short next to him, even when she is wearing those outrageously high heels. Ok, before your go off thinking I just lost my mind or something, cut me some slack. As a normal hetersexual female, I have every right to go swooning over some guy or another, and since I have no boyfriend, no harm right? Well, for those who haven't watched the movie, check this out: mms://movie.film2.co.kr/movie2/trailers/M0002360.asf (just copy and paste onto your address bar and windows media player will pop up) - this is the MV of Moon Geun Young singing Ye Lai Xiang, her chinese is lousy but its like a trailer of the movie. Enjoy! =) PS: I actually wanted to blog about how the newspapers is full of horrible news like hurricane katrina, typhoon 14 and all sorts of natural and man-made disasters, but felt perhaps it will be better to talk about some lighthearted topic once in a while.
Monday, September 05, 2005
I finally called NUS and guess what, I will never know why I wasn't selected but one thing is for sure, I was not what the interviewers wanted. Sigh... this is as good as not knowing... Guess I better just get over it and move on... Moping about it wouldn't change anything.
so sorry if I gave any of you a fright... just needed to let it out... i think im PMS-ing...im feeling much better now... so dun worry...
anyway, just wanted to share this song with you. sang this in church today, it really touched me the first time i heard it a few months back, when i was still struggling to come to terms of being rejected by the medical faculty...The Steps of a Good Man*Though dark be the night and long be the dayLord make me follow in Thy perfect wayThough cometh sorrow, though great be my painLord make me serve Thee, come sunshine or rain*The steps of good man are ordered by the LordAnd they delighteth in His wayThough he fall, he shall not be utterly cast downFor the Lord, for the Lord,For the Lord upholdeth him with His hand*O thou art almighty, I am so smallLord make me trust thee, whatever befallThou art all holy, You make no mistakeLord make me Christ-like, whatever it takes
Jean, this song is for you. I know u like it as much as I do and Im so happy for you that your dad came to church today. Just wanted to let you know that my family is praying for you and your family, so continue to trust in the Lord k?
Saturday, September 03, 2005
I cried again.
Can't remember since when I became a crybaby.
I can't stand whining but I guess I haven't gotten over it...
My ex-civics tutor emailed us and asked us to update her about our course of study. Initially I was really excited, as I needed her help with my academic reference for accomodation and wrote to her what I have been up to these few weeks.
However, when I read my friend's reply. It suddenly hit me again. Out of 26 in my class, 4 made it to medicine. 3 girls and 1 guy. (this is so as to dispel claims that the quota for girls in medicine still stands) Call me sour grapes, but it is honestly difficult for me to be truly happy for them. Although they may complain about their hectic schedules, while I seem to be on honeymoon, they represent the one thing I really wanted but could not obtain.
The JC2 prelims start next week, and it feels unreal that a year has passed just like this. Back then, I was one of the few able to say I could make it into medicine. Yet, now, the tables have turned...
I think the one reason I find it so hard to swallow was the very fact it seemed like they had no reason not to accept me. Till now, I sometimes ponder on the same question many have asked me - What happened? Why didn't you enter medicine? It wasn't as though I did not do well enough, or neglected CCA/CIP, or that my character is appalling. Is it?
Perhaps unless I find out the truth, I may not be able to close this chapter of my life. I do not wish to look back next time, and still wish to become a doctor. However, I am also afraid of knowing what the true reason is. Quite a coward, am I?
Anyway, enough of self pity. For those who were in AHS, I am pretty sure you will remember Mr Liew, the math teacher who loved to sing on special occasions. Go take a look at the cover page of Home in today's Strait's Times. His wife is now in a coma due to an accident in which the judge felt that both his wife and the driver were in the wrong. Please keep him and his family in prayer that the Lord will be with them during this trying period and keep them. May God's peace be upon them, that they may find rest in Him.
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