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Saturday, June 18, 2005

"We regret to inform you...."

Well, I do not need to complete the sentence, you should know what comes next.

So, it is final. I am not entering NUS, at least not this year.

My dad asks whether I am disillusioned. Maybe I am, but even so, I wouldn't know. Right now, I am just playing the waiting game and hopefully, Speech Therapy would be the step I take. But, if that dream disappears too, I guess I will have to take up the nursing scholarship. By that time, God would have been very clear what He wants me to do.

Sometimes it feels like God has already prepared me for this not too long ago, when I experienced double disappointment. But by His grace, I still did what I had to do with little bitterness. I know that whatever the road I take, I will do my very best and I leave it to God to choose the right road for me.

There are times when God wants you to do things you do not want to. However, no matter how you try to run, you will eventually still end up doing what God has in store for you. Look at Jonah, he had to be thrown out of the ship during a storm and eaten up by a big fish before he reached his destination and completed what God had asked him to do.

God is fair, contrary to popular belief. I know of people, who did not get the grades they want but got their choice of school and course. There are some who got the grades they wanted as well as the choice of school and course, but their having problems in their personal life. There are others too, who like me, got the grades they wanted but not their choice of school and/or course. People question the fairness of it all when innocent children die from cancer while serial murderers live to a ripe old age. Perhaps God wanted to save those children from the horrors of the world and let those murderers be tormented by their conscience and live in fear for as long as possible. Whatever the case, God is fair. We may not understand the logic behind it as our own view is tainted with sin, and will probably never know just like we cannot fathom how He holds the vast universe in the palm of His hand. I guess we just have to wait till we reach heaven to ask Him...

Lydea blogged at 3:01 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...