~May Your Light Shine :D~

Friday, May 06, 2005

My very good friend, Val is currently hospitalised for dengue fever. I visited her last evening and this afternoon but was unable to stay for long each time. Feel quite guilty about that cuz the first time i had to rush for tuition and the second was that she was feeling a lil sleepy by the time i arrived. BUT, this time, I prayed for her before I left.

I actually tried to share the gospel with her a few years back, when her grandma passed away, but i think she wasn't ready then and she did not want to hear what i had to say. So it has been nagging on my mind to tell her about God.

We have been friends for 7 years and she has always been there for me whenever i needed someone. Sometimes i think that when i complain so much to her, and when i tell her that God is my source of strength, im actually contradicting myself, but i hope not. Being a very independent person, I worry alot because I rely on myself alone. But I realized recently that, if i pass my burden to the Lord, things get much simpler and easier. By right, having only applied to one uni and only aiming for one course, I should be pretty jittery at this point in time. I could be but I remind myself that the Lord will open the right door for me and close the doors that were never meant for me to open, at least not now. So no point losing beauty sleep over it yea?

Being a second generation Christian, my faith has never been as strong as people like Jean, who came to know Christ on a first hand basis. My faith was actually built on my parents' and I simply obeyed my parents by going to church and attending sunday school. However, my parents said to me that God doesn't have any grandchildren, only children. Since then, I have prayed that the Lord would give me the thirst and hunger for His word as the bible seemed hard to digest. I saw my friends fervently serving the Lord and I wanted to be like them, but I found it hard to do so. Looking back, the fire to know God better and wanting to serve Him was always there, but I somehow found excuses like school to put it low on my priorities list. Now that I have no more excuses left, I am determined to let God take charge of my life from now own. Not that I will serve the Lord full time, not in the traditional sense, like what my dad hopes, but that thru me and my work later on, I might be a beacon of light to others and that I will model myself after Jesus. He is my best role model cuz He is perfect, why settle for less anyway?(btw one of the qns during the interview was who is your role model(s) and why) Dun get me wrong, I can never be perfect, but at least I can aim to be.

Anyway, I hope that I can be a good living testimony for Jesus and that Val, as well as those around me, would want to have Jesus in their lives as well. To those who already accepted their saviour, I hope your feel the same way as I do.

P.S. Val, hope you get well soon. I'll be praying for you. :)

Lydea blogged at 7:03 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...