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Friday, May 20, 2005

The letter I have been waiting for finally arrived...

Actually I got a hint of the outcome yesterday, even cried a little as I walked home and sang "O rejoice in the Lord"...

But I kept my hopes up...

I got into Business Administration.

I do not know whether that is the end of my dream to be in medicine. Should I appeal? Or study medicine elsewhere? It will be a good excuse to go overseas. But is it what the Lord wants me to do? I honestly have no idea...

I thought that the reason why I wanted to be a doctor is because the Lord gave me this calling but perhaps I thought wrong...

Now I seriously do not know what to do next. Should I take up the National Healthcare Group Scholarship for Nursing (3 yrs diploma, 1 yr conversion to degree) or take Business or Special Education, where I will get to work with children with special needs.

The thing is, do I truly have a passion for special children? Or is it because I have no other choices left?

The prospect of having to go through university and scholarship applications once more is giving me headaches. Thinking I might have to wait another year to start studying since I missed the dateline for this year's admission is enough to give me nightmares.

I'm very tired...

I almost cried today... but I told myself to be strong cuz all hope is not lost. I trust that God is in control. My prayer would be that I can hear Him and know the path to take. Just like in the song:

God never moves without pupose or plan
When trying his servant or molding a man
Give thanks to the Lord
Though your testing seems long
In darkness He giveth a song

O rejoice in the Lord, He makes no mistake
He knoweth the end of each path that I take
For when I am tried and purified
I shall come forth as gold

I could not see through the shadows ahead
So I looked at the cross of my Saviour instead
I bowed to the will of the Master that day
Then peace came and tears fled away

Noy I can see testing comes from above
God strengthens His children and purges in love
My Father knows best and I trust in His care
Through purging more fruit I will bear

Lydea blogged at 10:48 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...